Those we love don’t go away, they walk beside us every day…unseen, unheard, but always near, still loved, still missed, and very dear. - Unknown
When my grandpa died when I was 14 years old, my heart shattered open and my soul went to a very dark place. Grieving, for me, was the worst experience. I went inward and struggled to talk about what I was going through. When the grief continued far beyond a “normal” time frame, I thought there was something wrong with me.
During my coaching training, we had to focus on “things we couldn’t be with” or areas/memories/experiences in our life that hurt to look at. All weekend, I skirted around the issue and came up with surface-level things (probably deep down knowing what I couldn’t be with was how much I *still* missed my grandpa). During some downtime, I was journaling on this topic and I felt inspired to go back a few pages where I knew there was a random blank page in my notebook.
I began to write and poem (see below) and as I wrote, I realized it was about my grandpa. One of the hardest things for me to be with is how much I was still in mourning over losing him and the shame I felt around not being able to “get over it”. By the end of the poem, I was sobbing. I also got super cold and then starting at my chest I felt an immense, overwhelming warmth and I knew my grandpa was there with me. It was a very pivotal moment in my mental and spiritual health - I finally had the realization that he might be gone from our physical lives but he’s always with me. This was the first time a spirit visited me during the waking hours.
My grandpa had visited me several times in my dreams prior to this experience. In one dream, we both cried, hugged each other and he let me know he was OK.
Isn’t that what we want to know when our loved ones pass away?
My medium abilities have developed rapidly since that day. I am constantly blown away by the healing that can occur when my intuitive skills bridge your heart to the souls of your loved ones.
I recognize that deciding to work with a medium is a major step in your grieving and healing process. Here are some signs you are ready:
You are receiving signs already from your loved ones (dreams, symbols, songs, etc)
You are open to connecting to spirit
You are committed to your grieving and healing journey
I am not like the mediums you see on the TV. My intention for our time together is not to connect to any spirit (though some may come through!) but rather to connect directly to the spirit you wish to connect to. I serve as a bridge between your heart and the particular soul you wish to connect with.
To prepare for your session, I invite you to ask the soul you wish to connect with me. It’s important to bring a favorite memory with this soul. Also, it is optional to bring a personal item of this soul as well.
Returning to a Blank Page
Returning to a blank page,
For the sake of filling it?
But is it to serve the page?
Will it serve me to return to
A blank page?
What was left unsaid,
Unwritten?
What needed to be filled
There at the time the
Book was open to that page?
Can the page be accessed?
If I see it, will I like it.
No.
But again, yes.
It hurts, it's scary, I feel it in my throat.
It’s grief, it’s closure, that
I never wrote.
I wanted to say it, I wanted
To tell you -
To see your
Eyes and your warm smile.