Personally, I’m heading into week 8 of staying at home. That first week still feels raw and closer to my heart than 8 weeks ago. I had so much anxiety it felt like everything bad was going to happen all at once. Like an explosion and then we’d all take a second to sit back and try to process what just happened.
Except it hasn’t really been an explosion. Well maybe like a small daily explosion, or like we’re watching an explosion in slow motion.
I don’t know when this will end. Quite frankly, I don’t think it ever will “end”. I think the fabric of our lives is forever changed because of what’s going on right now. And, my inner optimist is here for it.
I wholeheartedly believe that right now is a major shift a lot of us have been asking for or dreaming about. It’s not easy. It’s not even the way most of us would’ve hoped this could go down.... But it’s a pause. It’s a “white space” as my friend Bridget puts it. It’s a chance to say “hey, how do I want my life to operate going forward? What did I used to do that is no longer serving me? What have I started doing that is making me feel really good?” If you’re like what is all this reflection talk cause my quarantine has not been like? Well, let me remind you of my free guide “Quarantime Back In Your Day”. Enjoy.
Anyway, thought I’d share a few highlights/updates/stories that have happened since Quarantine started:
It’s been a year (14 months) since I last colored my hair. Hindsight in a time of no salon access says: good decision Kels!
My hair is also now...curly?! It’s always had a little bit of a wave but I haven’t seen this type of curl since I was blonde and a toddler.
I *finally* launched my first product - the Love Your Job Workbook. That launch date feels like a lifetime ago but it was only about a week ago…
I turned 30. At first, I was scared of this. Now, I decided that I love it. My twenties were all about being a racehorse. My 30s are going to be about being a wild horse.
I heard a loud crash and then looked out my window to see a car smashed upside down in front of our house. It was: a) super scary b) a good reminder that life is short and can change in the blink of an eye and c) a miracle because the woman was alert, unscratched and talking as she entered the ambulance.
I suddenly am into tidying. The top of my dresser has never been so clean. My mom says she doesn’t know if she’s ever seen my dresser that clean. Go figure.
Dane and I heard a different kind of crash. The crash of a drunk squirrel falling out of a tree. Squirrels are weird.
I’ve gotten more into birds. Most frequently I see cardinals, eagles, blue jays and little yellow birds. I also can identify the two-note song of the black-capped chickadee.
I’m back into running…though all of the races I’ve signed up for have been cancelled. Another good reminder that even when we think we have a plan… life changes.
One thing I thought I’d freak out if I didn’t have but didn’t? Not going to CorePower Yoga every day. I had a lot of anxiety about that early on but my mind, body and budget seems to be doing just fine with the change.
If you can relate to any of these stories, or if any of it made you laugh, can you leave a comment below? Or hit reply and let me know? That always makes this “talking to my internet friends” thing a little easier.
Love,
Kelsey